Finally the light at the end of the tunnel is near

The semester is finally winding down it is soon going to be the new year with a start of brand new adventure around the corner. As the next few weeks pass I am going to be enjoying not having to do any school work and just enjoy life so many new things have happend this year that i just want to be able to enjoy them now.
Its hard to believe that another year is going to past and with that said IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS i know in posts before i was not really in the christmas mood but that has changed i finally found some christmas spirit it was hard but i found it. The next couple of days after getting done with finals and studying i will be finishing putting up the tree at my house it has always been my thing at christmas to put the ornaments on the tree it is something that reminds me of being younger and sitting with my mom going through all the ornaments and asking what year was this from and where was this one from and all sorts of things its just a fun thing for me to do something that i used to do with my mom now that im older i do myself as i still look at all the old ornaments from my childhood like my aladdin ones and the little mermaid one even though i am older it is still nice to look at those on the tree here is just a before picture of the christmas tree before all the ornaments are put up another picture will be up when all the beautiful and silly ornaments are on the tree enjoy this cold and enjoyable holiday

So close yet so far away

In about one week classes will be officially over for the semester and I can't wait as i am sure many others are looking forward to it as well as i am. The stress of school is so much sometimes that it can just bring you down and make you forget what is really important to you. You start to go crazy and in that you make others around you go that way too. It is a rough time for all of us college students but we must not forget the ones we love and in this hard time of studying and all nighters to not take our stress out on them they are just trying to help and usually make you calm down so with this i leave you all of you studying for finals and gettin ready for the semester to end keep your head up high and keep calm and when in doubt WATCH SOME CHRISTMAS MOVIES :) and take time most importantly to RELAX. We all need to be relaxed and take a break now and than to clear your mind it will help in the end and keep the stress down as well

I wish you all very much luck in this next couple weeks of finals good luck to all and to all a good night... oh wait thats Christmas :)

only 16 more shopping DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas

For most people Christmas is a spectacular holiday of fun and cheer. For some reason this holiday season I cant get into the spirit. I cant find that holiday cheer in myself. I feel like just staying in a box and skipping the holiday. I guess people take the context out of the meaning and thats whats getting me down. It seems like people are to into the "things" of christmas the presents the food the cleaning which thats not important for once i would like a christmas of not worrying bout gettin people things and have a simple chirstmas with just family and friends i dont need presents. i actually perfer not to have anything. because thats not how christmas should be it shouldnt be about what your getting all the time but how your celebrating the birth of christ which is what the holiday is about its about the birth of Christ notice CHIRST mas. we make this holiday all bout things instead this year i think we should make it bout feelings and knowing and feeling grateful for what you have instead of what you want. you dont need an ipod, i pad or a new phone or anything materialistic for me what i want this Christmas is to spend it with my family and friends and my new family i have in my life. I write bout Christmas ever year. but to me it really has lost its meaning i want to get into the spirit but when everyone around you has lost the meaning the true meaning is just being thankful for what you have and being with your family and friends you dont need gifts a clean house lots of food or christmas lights or any of that for a great christmas so i challenge you will you have a christmas full of gifts and material things or will you have a christmas full of love with family and friends

Merry Christmas

been awhile but a update is so needed

so with in the last couple months lots has happend but most importantly i have to announce that i am officially and very excited to be ENGAGGED!!!! yes engagged to the most wonderful man in the world. He treats me so good. Just like the new Carrie underwood song Mama's song. Because he is good and he treats your little girl like a real man should. Those words are so true because he does it all the time he talks to me when he really doesnt have to but does anyway. When ever I am in a bad mood he is right there only a call away. I dont know how life with out him would be I cant even imagine it but life with him is awesome. All of my friends are excited for me. Telling the parents was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I knew once he asked me that yes I was so excited but I knew once I went home to tell my parents they would in some ways be dissapointed they were not dissapointed just shocked it was hard at first but now they are very supportative its going to take some gettin used to but it is so what I want he means everything to me he is absoutly wonderful. Telling his family was hard as well but again they were shocked but are very supportative in us I really am so blessed for wonderful friends and a wonderful family well now two families :).
You never expect something so special to be so much more special when your in love. Those simple words WILL YOU MARRY ME? are the words every girl wants to hear some day and when you are asked those words they mean so much more than just a yes but when saying yes you feel so loved and so emerged with joy you cant contain yourself. Its going to be couple of years which is what so hard explaining to our parents.This is really what I want and I am so happy I have found it it! There will be many more updates through out my new journey :) with pictures to come along the way
I hope everyone will continue to support me through my NEW journey and come along for the ride
I have been so Blessed

lions and tigers and bears. gradutation...OH MY

last week on tuesday was my very first time ever goin to the zoo. yes i am 21 and never been to the zoo not because my parents never took me its because i never really wanted to go but it was so much fun i went with the best people ever one of my best friends kelly and michelle and kellys sister amy. There were so many animals I was seriously like a little girl who was five it was so funny. it was great day we rode in the train we had a picnic lunch it was probably the best time ive had in a long time.


this past weekend my cousin my baby cousin who is not a baby hes 18 and he graduated i cant believe it. It seems like just yesterday i was dressing him up in my clothes i got that kid to do anything i wanted. he was so cute and saturday he looked different he looked so grown up. hes going to be a part of the adult world. I am so excited for him and to see him be successful in what ever he does i am so proud of him.

i started my first day of work this weekend as well i think i am goin to love it there it is so much fun the kids are adorable and so freakin cute its hard at times not the job it self but the calming down the little ones. i had a little girl today right away she wanted me she was allhappy and smiles so cute and as soon as i put her down she started bawling all she wanted was me to hold her it was the cutest thing ever. this is preparing me for so many things. not only do i know i have the patcience for this but i know i wil be such a better person in the long run as a teacher. i love being with kids i love their smiling faces and even when they are crying it touches your heart.

i am so blessed to have a wonderful family, friends, and a job
god is so good

Summer loving

the last few weekends have been great i went down to where my boyfriend lives i so love it down there its absoutly gorgeous and so peaceful you can feel totally relaxed out there and even though there really is nothing but trees and corn fields its so beautiful nature is great. i was kinda bummed i didn't bring my camera like i wanted to do i wanted to post pictures of how pretty it was but that didn happen oh well next time for sure. the first day we just hung around the house and watched movies like we always do its our thing and considering we dont have much money it works. than his little cousin and aunt came over and we hung out with them i played with a very rambuxcious how ever it is spelled 4 year old wow i never thought that anyone could where me out as much as she did she was a lot of fun though so cute said the cutest things ever. we woke up the next day i woke up to very loud annoying black birds i swear i never ever want to hurt an animal but when its 6 am and your trying to sleep the birds need to go no worries i didn hurt any of them i wanted to and thought bout it but i didn't. we played all afternoon played restaurant and than watched some more movies or tried to. than the whole clan came over his mom and dad tj and even chester for dinner we had steaks and salad and potatoes it was so yummylicous for sure than after that it was more of waring out a vary energized lil girl so much energy for a little girl. well than we got time for a break and went over and we fed the fish in his grandpas pond and just sat out on the grass and talked for a lil while. its so serene and you can really appreciate what god has put around us to enjoy. than we played a fun couple of games of corn hole game until we learned the real rules lol than went inside to relax and cool off from being outside pretty much all afternoon. by the time i was all relaxed it was the final day and i had to leave i had to leave the peaceful no rush lifestyle to the chaos life of the place i call home although i do love my home and where i live its always nice to get away for nice calming getaway for a bit. we finished the final day with a wonderful breakfast and than outside watching the lil one fish with her grandpa.. oh i also held a bug for the first time ever in my life i never would ever do that lets just say ill never do it again even if it was just a fly. This week/weekend has been also fun due to our kitchen being redone its been quite busy around here cabinets and flooring is being ripped out of the house all of these changes around here its crazy i have been here for 21 years almost 22 and not much has been done to it its all good changes though just very weird for me. besides that its was a weekend full of planting flowers and i got very sunburned i guess thats what i get for not puttin sunscreen on all the way on my shoulders. later that evening my wonderful boyfriend came up and we hung out all weekend we watched some movies but we also got a chance to enjoy the beautiful weather we were blessed with this weekend we went swimming at the rec center and than we came home and relaxed and tore up some cabinets again. went for a nice dinner with my family at macaroni grill for my parents 35th anniversary :) than we came home and went for a walk and finished outside by playin some frisebee it was quite fun let me tell you than it was time to relax and again watch some movies as usual not much you can do at night it was a great weekend and ended monday by having a nice dinner with my family for memorial day. i am very blessed to have such wonderful family and a wonderful boyfriend in my life and my friends to. i can't wait to hang out with them.

till another fun adventure i bid you all adieau

its summer time

SO this is the first week of summer day 3 already its gonna be going pretty good. This past week and weeknd were pretty awesome if i do say so. I had my final week. All went well even though i only really had one final which is math its the 4th time ive taken it so lets hope i got it this time around. i passed my other 2 classes with flying colors i have 2 As and now just waiting on the math grade. I went to an interview for lifetime fitness on monday... and now i am an employee of lifetime fitness they called me back on wednesday night before i left for school and i got the job i have never been so excited before for a job. Its for their child care center so its perfect. i knew i could get a job without having to work at some fast food place and i finally got it. Exams went pretty well as far as im concerned i got 2 As and finally passed my math class even though it was with just a C i still passed and i am so happy finally i am on track. Thursday was the first day at lifetime i had to take a cpr class which was a long time but it was good i got paired with a big tall black guy who was twice my size it was very awkward since i had to do the himlach motions on him it was very interesting. friday went on got my new glasses than ty and i went off to the hoedown all day. driving was fun as always stupid gps pointed us toward the wrong way so we just shut the thing off but any way we were all pumped it was a very interesting i never seen so much flesh and underwear in my life but other than that it was good. especially when we were that at the end we were sittin on the wall and people were being rude and sayin hey u people down there can you move not even nicely so ty moved and than all these people came down and since he is tall they were usin him to help themselves get down and needless to say that didn work out so well than by the time we got home and ate from dennys it was 100 something and i had to wake up at the crack of dawn for my cpr class. now all i have to do is be trained and working and im ready to go. after that we went to one of my friends to watch a movie made him watch dirty dancing haha.

now for update on my summer to do
so i can check off job i got that one :) check off good books i got some to read thanks to kelly :) takin pictures yep that one is a go too

ill be updating more here now that i have time to post these and usually am pretty bored expect pictures sometimes too :)

till than

love is the mount of everything

picture memories

kelly gave me this idea yesterday and i forgot to do it so now i am..... this is how it works todays date for example is 5/8/2010 nothing will be done with the year but with month and day. you go through your pictures and in your albums you choose the 5th album and than the 8th picture if you dont have many albums or pics you keep scrolling through them till you get it like ennie meenie minee moe type thing....so here it goes


this is my best friend when we went to the darius rucker luke bryan concert defnately a time to remeber

the next date is 8/3/09 which is my anniversary of me and my boyfriend so again 8th album and 3rd picture this is from my 21st birthday celebration with my cousin



next date is 8/26 which is my birthday ill be 22 this year so here it goes oddly enough its from me and my cousins birthday haha wich is him opening the tie i gave him for his birthday


lets see next important date id have to say is 5/13/2010 which is the last day of school for the year yay so 5th month again this would be from the concert as well and its lovely luke bryan ahh what an awesome performer

next date lets see its going to be 06/9/007 my grad date since kelly and i were talkin bout it yesterday :)oddly enough this also an album from my birthday my 21st birthday wow and this is pic of me and mommmy how cute prolly one of my favorites i took that night i love her shes the best

i think ill do 3/3 which is my boys birthday just to see what comes up
this album is from when i went to see one of my best friends at grandvalley its actually of her and michelle how cute i actually like this one kinda funny since she gave me the idea :) what great way to look through pictures and a great way to end my blog for the day

till next time

next week is hoedown so ill have pics up from that and its also summer break finally :) so it will be updates from my new adventures i plan on doin this summer

summer to do

a couple days ago my friend kelly who is one of my best friends was telling me what she was doing this summer and that our friend michelle was starting a summer to do list kind of like a burried list bucket list thing and she was telling me about it and i thought it was great idea so here is my list and hopefully there will be more updates to come on my adventures
Drive expressway by self
Go see Kelly
Swim in lake Michigan
Go downtown grandrapids
Spend the week at my babys place
Read some good books
Go on bike ride with ty
Go see the eovaldis
Get a job!!!!!
Go to coyote joes
Go swim in the pond
Slip and slide party with liz
Barbeque
Scrapbookin more
Takin more pictures
Blog more
Go to cedar point
Go to a park /swing on swing
Just get in my car and drive somewhere
Learn how to drive a stick shift
Watch some good movies
Voulenteer
Go explore Downtown Detroit-----With kelly and ms. joy one day haha
Go camping with Kelly
Make Hobo Pies
Have a sleepout in my backyard with Kelly and Kimmy with a tent and all
Go to the Detroit zoo
Go line dancing
Enjoy the sunset with a beverage
Make dinner for ty
Go to lunch with Anna

this list will most likely continue through out summer and as i do them ill cross them off and write about it this starts the day after my last day of school which is may 14th so keep a look out

so close yet so far away

This semester is hard to believe but its almost done i cant believe it. by the end of this semester i will have been in college for 3 years that to me is just so crazy i cant believe i have been out of high school for so long by the summer ill be 22 22 years of my life have passed so crazy things are goin great school is going good finally passing the math class 4th is the charm apparently not 3. it about 4 months me and my boyfriend will be together for a year and what a wild and crazy and wonderful year it has been with him i wouldn change anything he is amazing only person i know is cares so much. he is always right here for me, yah its 2 and half hours away but we make it work i wouldn change anything he is the greatest. i cant wait for summer to be here to be out of school to finally relax find me a job get some money, convince my parents to let me visit my friends who live a lil away like kelly who is stayin in gvsu this summer who i will miss so much shes one of my best friends and my other best friend who is currently in florida for a intern ship wont be back till mid august i miss her as well if i had money id fly down to see her i miss her. and also there is convincing my parents to let me drive to see my boyfriend as i did in my last post i wont go there again . Hopefully this summer is goin to be filled with many adventures and much fun. i know it certainly will be crazy around this house due to our kitchen gettin remodled oh joy lots of mess to clean up but im sure it will look nice when its all done..

I cant wait for summer sunshine to get here and to wake up every day and just go outside and sit in the sunshine :)

only a few more weeks till summer is here
till next time

life

why is that i am 21 and i feel like i am 12... i have a pretty decent life i go to school i come home i have a nice home i live life pretty well i can pretty much say my parents are great but there are times they just dont understand i try to see from there point of view i just cant when they fell like they cant trust me. i am 21 i am a legal adult there is absoutly no excuse for not lettin me drive on the highway to see my boyfriend or to see my friends up at school no excuse i have never gotten a ticket knock onwood never a bad accident knock on wood yes ive had minor incidents but still not fair. yes i know i am their daughter but treatin me like i am 12 isnt gonna make me learn if they are so afraid then why dont they teach me. why dont they want me to learn its ridicouls people who are way younger than me and have less experience can go but i cant its just so i cant even describe it it makes no sense there really is no reason i can not if they have a good reason id be okay with it but they dont at all and that just makes me mad which is why i am writing this i need to let my feelings out before i just get bottled up i mean i do love my parents and i know they care but they have to let go sometime and let me figure things out and learn thats part of being an adult is learning from ur mistakes and knowin whats right for you. with your parents there to guide you not tell you cant do something or make you so afraid you dont even want to tell them thats not right i love my parents they are great i wouldn be here if it wasnt for them , i understand they wants whats best for me but when is it time for me to learn that i have always been a good girl done what they tell me to always but in some ways thats hurt me because i let them walk on me sometimes instead of just doin it i dont because i am afraid of what theyll think what if i went away to school which i really do wish i did i think id have more freedom not that i dont now cuz i do but i could make decisions for myself not having them decide for me... well now that i got that out of my system its time to watch some of my favorite boys and prlly fall asleep its been a long day

god bless all of you tillnext time

<3

been awhile.... change in some thought

Over the last couple months i have been thinking about a lot of things. One that i cant believe how fast this school year has seem to have gone. i cant believe that after 4 more classes i am officially done with macomb and off to bigger and better things. hopefully at oakland or even if im not there anywhere where my heart takes me to. After the first day being in my ed class i knew that this is what i want. i mean i have known i wanted to be a teacher since i was in 2nd grade this class just has been cementing it into me that this is really what i want to do and i am going to do all possible to make it happen. i dont care if i have to go through like 30 years of schooling to do it. this is what i want and noone can change my mind. they can try all they want but its not gonna happen. i love kids and i love the idea of being in a classroom yes i may complain about going to school but waking up every morning and walking into a classroom full of smiling faces is going to be worth it. i have been doing a field study at my former elementary school and as soon as i walked back into that school i felt like i was a little kid again it felt so weird and it looked so much different than what i could remember it didn't look as big as i remembered. when i walked into that class room everything that i remembered when i was little was coming back the bright colorfull walls filled with numbers and abc's and words of color and the kids about me posters. one thing that was different than i remember is that these kids have so much more to do. it was different for once being on the teacher end for once and seeing what all teachers have to do if anyone thinks by any means teachers have an easy job you better think twice about that comment they have so much to do in within an hour of a day. they have to keep the kids quiet make sure they have their homework turned in, get their lesson in order, and so much more. there are days they have a very slow easy day and others you may not even get half of the curriculum you need to get done. this is the feeling i got after one session of being with my teacher i am working with. and even after all that i still wanna do it. yes there maybe a little stress and you may have a hard time but you have your family and your other teachers as i learned in my ed class that will make it okay and you have to remember not every lesson you teach will be liked or will work out so you just tweak it and let it go as long as they get the information and understand it and learn from it. i have learned so much from this class already and its only been like maybe 4 weeks in to class. which is good which means A i like it and B im going to remember it more. we have had some debates in class well not heated but like disscusions one being on is patriotism important in the classroom and i believe yes it is i belieive we should be proud to be american and learn about our country and how it was became yes we need to know bout other countries as well but we live here for a reason and i bet there are still some people who havent a clue who the last few presidents have been and to me thats just sad and wrong. its not the teachers fault at that either its the people who deicde what we as teachers are teaching to our students. welll now that i have ranted on my teaching class that i absoutly love. time for some the second thing

I have been thinking bout how far i have become in the last year .1 year ago around this time my aunt had just died and it was during this week that i was surrounded by my family who had just lost a family member. i feel like in my last year i have had people come and than i have also lost a lot of people as well some for the good and some for the bad. people i thought would still be with me are gone and we are no longer friends any more well i think were friends just not as close as we were this time a year ago. do i feel different because of it yes in a way because i thought that wed still be close and after the summer things seemed to change just because of something i did which i think is kinda wrong but what can a person do. but i have also made some incredible friendships since that year i have reconnected with a couple of friends that i havent had much contact with because they left for school and now we are back to talking a lot. i think this has all happend for a reason i think it was time for that friendship to in a way seperate were at differnt times im still in the im in college looking for a job and hanging out with my friends and not just one of them im not into the whole party scene i never really have been. its just not what im into i rather have a night in with my friends eating food or scrapbookin and just talking or watching a movie i dont need to be drinking so maybe thats what set us apart. i do indeed miss that specail bond we had but i guess people change and need to get their life in order i believe i am on an okay track right now with my life and am goin in the right direction. and i have my family and my friends helping me a long the way and i wish my relationship with this person the best and someday im sure well talk again but hopefully that connection would not have changed because of just something she didn think was right.

till next time god bless

bring on the new year

well its another year hopefully this one will go as good as it started out....

with a new year comes another long semester and this one for sure will be long goin to school not 2 days not 3 days but 4 days a week now. my life is goin to be consisting of school homework and looking for a job and makin time for my friends and family who i love so dearly. as much as i want to start school up i really am not lookin forward to the homework that comes with it. but this should be a very fun exciting year this is the best year so far :)

till another time