Over the last couple months i have been thinking about a lot of things. One that i cant believe how fast this school year has seem to have gone. i cant believe that after 4 more classes i am officially done with macomb and off to bigger and better things. hopefully at oakland or even if im not there anywhere where my heart takes me to. After the first day being in my ed class i knew that this is what i want. i mean i have known i wanted to be a teacher since i was in 2nd grade this class just has been cementing it into me that this is really what i want to do and i am going to do all possible to make it happen. i dont care if i have to go through like 30 years of schooling to do it. this is what i want and noone can change my mind. they can try all they want but its not gonna happen. i love kids and i love the idea of being in a classroom yes i may complain about going to school but waking up every morning and walking into a classroom full of smiling faces is going to be worth it. i have been doing a field study at my former elementary school and as soon as i walked back into that school i felt like i was a little kid again it felt so weird and it looked so much different than what i could remember it didn't look as big as i remembered. when i walked into that class room everything that i remembered when i was little was coming back the bright colorfull walls filled with numbers and abc's and words of color and the kids about me posters. one thing that was different than i remember is that these kids have so much more to do. it was different for once being on the teacher end for once and seeing what all teachers have to do if anyone thinks by any means teachers have an easy job you better think twice about that comment they have so much to do in within an hour of a day. they have to keep the kids quiet make sure they have their homework turned in, get their lesson in order, and so much more. there are days they have a very slow easy day and others you may not even get half of the curriculum you need to get done. this is the feeling i got after one session of being with my teacher i am working with. and even after all that i still wanna do it. yes there maybe a little stress and you may have a hard time but you have your family and your other teachers as i learned in my ed class that will make it okay and you have to remember not every lesson you teach will be liked or will work out so you just tweak it and let it go as long as they get the information and understand it and learn from it. i have learned so much from this class already and its only been like maybe 4 weeks in to class. which is good which means A i like it and B im going to remember it more. we have had some debates in class well not heated but like disscusions one being on is patriotism important in the classroom and i believe yes it is i belieive we should be proud to be american and learn about our country and how it was became yes we need to know bout other countries as well but we live here for a reason and i bet there are still some people who havent a clue who the last few presidents have been and to me thats just sad and wrong. its not the teachers fault at that either its the people who deicde what we as teachers are teaching to our students. welll now that i have ranted on my teaching class that i absoutly love. time for some the second thing
I have been thinking bout how far i have become in the last year .1 year ago around this time my aunt had just died and it was during this week that i was surrounded by my family who had just lost a family member. i feel like in my last year i have had people come and than i have also lost a lot of people as well some for the good and some for the bad. people i thought would still be with me are gone and we are no longer friends any more well i think were friends just not as close as we were this time a year ago. do i feel different because of it yes in a way because i thought that wed still be close and after the summer things seemed to change just because of something i did which i think is kinda wrong but what can a person do. but i have also made some incredible friendships since that year i have reconnected with a couple of friends that i havent had much contact with because they left for school and now we are back to talking a lot. i think this has all happend for a reason i think it was time for that friendship to in a way seperate were at differnt times im still in the im in college looking for a job and hanging out with my friends and not just one of them im not into the whole party scene i never really have been. its just not what im into i rather have a night in with my friends eating food or scrapbookin and just talking or watching a movie i dont need to be drinking so maybe thats what set us apart. i do indeed miss that specail bond we had but i guess people change and need to get their life in order i believe i am on an okay track right now with my life and am goin in the right direction. and i have my family and my friends helping me a long the way and i wish my relationship with this person the best and someday im sure well talk again but hopefully that connection would not have changed because of just something she didn think was right.
till next time god bless
